‘Nobody really knew about my struggles. We’re all human’, Jesse Lingard hits back at trolls
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Jesse Lingard has hit back at trolls as he opens up on the difficulties he has faced during a tough spell at Manchester United.
However, he has now spoken candidly about the struggles he faced as he speaks about his battle with depression.
As per The Guardian, Lingard said: “I was on autopilot. I was having conversations with people and I was just like: ‘Yeah. OK. Yeah.’ Nothing would register. It would go in one ear and out the other. I was numb and I wanted to be in that numb state where I didn’t have to feel anything.”
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Lingard spoke about the lowest point of that difficult period, coming after United’s match against Derby.
The midfielder said: “I just felt so much scrutiny, especially after the Derby game and I was getting abuse as I got on the bus,” Lingard says. “I can normally take it but sometimes it gets to a point where it’s like: ‘Ahh, I can’t even be arsed doing this anymore.’
“Nobody really knew about my struggles off the pitch so they think: ‘You’re a footballer, you live in a nice house, you’ve got money, you can deal with anything.’ But when it’s someone’s health and well-being – it’s a different situation. We’re all human.”
Lingard then revealed that he turned to alcohol. He added: “Coming home, lying on the sofa and staring. When I look at that now, I don’t know what was in my mind but it must have been racing. Literally, I just wanted to sit at home and drink a little bit – try and take the pain away. I don’t do that, normally. I’m not really a big drinker. Of course, here and there on nights out, whatever. But sitting at home and drinking before bed … that’s when I knew I was in a bad situation.
“It wasn’t drinking to excess. It was just little bits through the week and stuff like that. I look back and think: ‘What was I doing?’ It was probably just to be in a mind frame where I’ve got no pain, no cares. Because I didn’t have anyone to bounce off or feed off, I resorted to that.”
Lingard is now at Nottingham Forest as he looks to reignite his career and ultimately hopes to earn a return to the England set-up.